Home sweet home!! I missed my house so much!!
So much to do, so little time!! So much homework, so much revising that has to be done!! I... want... time!
But you know, i kinda like this busy atmosphere i've been in these past 6 months. I mean, it's tough, having 3 quizzes everyday, 2 tests per week, not including the subjects (which my brain seems to take forever to absorb even when i concentrate during lecture), not getting enough sleep.
But i think i'm used to all of that. I mean, i should be, by now. And honestly, i love being an RPKJ student. Even when sensei says 'best kan jadi pelajar rpkj?' in a somehow sarcastic tone, like after giving us this mountain of homework, i'll reply 'ha'a, best sangat-sangat, sensei' also in a somehow sarcastic tone, i honestly do mean it. I like having the gears in my brain always moving. Having a clear goal of what to do, where to go. Having things to do. I never want to go back to the state i was when i was waiting for spm results...
I've never been to boarding school, so i was worried about living in college, (really) far away from home, no mama's cooking, no chatting online, no blogging, no TV, no CSI! and classes from morning to evening.. at first i thought there was no way i was gonna survive that. But now that i'm used to life in college, i like it here. I feel more independent than i was before and i like that feeling, making decisions on my own, thinking what's good for me. I think what i really like is setting that schedule in my head. Well, there's really not that much to set, most of my day is already set. And usually i don't follow the schedule i set anyway. But anyway i like making those little decisions and making myself stick to em. And being confident that that decision i made was not affected by anyone except my own feeling, and i'll face the consequences on my own later. Though when i go shopping my friends do affect my decisions, hehe.
And another thing about college ... being surrounded by friends 24/7. Going out on weekends without parents or parents' cash (and buying whatever i want), staying up late doing homework, just popping into other people's room to do whatever you like, like lie on their bed or eat their food XD (makan bila di-offer laa) Maybe to some people all these things are nothing special, but i've never done any of these things before so i'm quite thankful that i finally know how it's like. Ah, things like these are the hardest to describe.
Well, as for final-sem-exam, i screwed up maths real bad. And i remember senpai saying '...yang penting maths kena power, ah' No...! Huhuhu ... But i used to really love maths why do i suck at it so much now... it's so hard! Actually i know i just need a bit more practice and i'll finally get to stick those darn formulas in my head. Well, whatever happens happens. I'm ready, cause it's my own fault after all. I didn't balance the subjects properly and paid more attention to physics (a lot more attention). And ended up only having a hold of about 20% of maths... ish3
Not looking forward to getting my final-sem-exam results but looking forward to starting sem 2! How's it gonna be like? Studying maths, chem and physics in japanese. How much pressure will i experience, how exhausted will i feel? Really having no choice but to speak in japanese, hehe. Gotta sharpen my speaking skills. Gotta start speaking first, haih. Where can i find that confidence to speak... ?
